Musical Therapy

"Courage! Believe in yourself! Sing from your heart!" and I'm thinking, Isn't the fact that I am standing up here on the stage statement enough of my courage? For the woman leading our Master class in German lieder, apparently not. I also thought that I was singing with plenty of emotion to begin with, but found out I was wrong again. Blame it on being taught that passion leads to naughty things, blame it on fear of hurting myself again, blame it on praise for singing like an angel, whatever you choose, today I was asked to throw it all to the side. Such words as "orgasm" were used by our teacher who also told me to stop singing like such an angel and "let the devil out". Don't jump to conclusions, this was not a lesson in conjuring up demons, but it was the first time that I really tried to step out of myself, just a little, and sing, really sing from my heart. All I can say now is, "Wow!" It was really amazing.

There are so many amazing things I am learning here at the Academy, I don't even know where to begin describing them or applying them to my own musical life.