My life: Sometimes sadder than a woodpecker pecking on a plastic tree

Ahhh, internet finally! Please do not jump to conclusions. We do not have internet at the seminary yet, I have just finally gotten me turn to hop on a computer here at the Academy- a wait that can last up to a half hour at times. The scoop on the seminary is, when David Pawlak returned, he found the modem broken. This was something that our paid director could not figure out himself- or perhaps he knew and assumed that David could fix it. At any rate, we now await on him, this very Rektor to get off his very stationary rar and go buy a new Modem. I was told it could be anywhere from a week - two weeks before I have internet again. I don't know about that, because I imagine that Krzystof, the Rektor, now knowing what the problem is, will be in such a rush to continue his daily activity of downloading beautiful pictures from webshots for his screen saver (this mind you is in my opinion what he does all day) will not be able to wait a moment longer now also being deprived for a whole week (because I wonder, if he has not internet to play on all day, what has he being doing with himself for work) will jump at the opportunity to spend more cash on something other than the school of English and will go buy a new Modem. So Dolly the hopefully has faith that she might have internet by mid-week. Only time will tell.

As for my faithful readers (all 5 of you???), thank you for bearing with my absence. Dearest Patricia Lynn, My larnyx is indeed still intact, fear not nor call upon mercies. ;) Peter, see you Wednesday? 11:15 is my group. Enter the building, take a right and then your first left and the "Concert Hall" will be on your right. That is where my exam will take place. Nikki dearest, how are things with school? Know that I miss our daily chatting and I hope your teachers are treating you right. Bryce, did you watch Die Hard 3 yet? Mike, since the choir will be in Warsaw for rehearsal next Sabbath, I was wondering if you would like to be my buddy for the day? We could do lunch and maybe even invite some people over??? I have a recipie for some very yummy soy patties I experimented on Kris with this weekend. Very Adventist we could be. ;) Let me know!

One last matter of concern and I beckon all of your thoughts on this. I am reading through "Patriarchs and Prophets" at the moment, can't remember what chapter, but I am reading about Joseph presently. Whenever I read spirit of prophecy I feel like the most Oiy person on the planet, that everything I do is evil and in every sentence Sister EGW is chastizing me. Does anyone else feel this way? I am feeling particularly wicked lately since in Sabbath school a few weeks ago, we were discussing "sin" as part of the Sabbath School lesson and Arek, one of the pastors made a point that we are, in fact, sin. Not just sinful, but sin itself. So now I have been thinking 'I am sin' and assuming therefore that every natural decision I make is 'sinful' and wondering how God is ever going to rid me of this sin and have me be even a shred recognizable at all to the Dolly Porawski I am at present. Can one be too paranoid about these things? Help!

Anyway, I am off to Podkowa, my internetless, cold, sometimes waterless and electricityless world of a Polish-Adventist mentality type heaven. Hip, Hip, Horray.