Is it my IP? Or is it me?
The internet war continues as I face IP address and Virus battles head on. Last night I thought all was lost and that the "Trojan Horse" had not only killed my web browser, but all means of internet connection. Strangely enough after a good night's sleep and 2 re-boots, all systems are a go this morning. Who knows the deal with my constant IP address conflicts and Mr. Pollok is no where to be found. Anyway, if I seem to have fallen off the face of the earth, you will know what is going on.
RE: "True Happiness in the Family." Have I stepped on your toes Mr. Lazar? These meetings being versions of something American doesn't make them any less corny and I am sorry if that term sounds overly negative to anyone. I don't mean for it to be. I am certain that God will use these meetings to help lots of people, and I don't deny that even I feel the Holy Spirit impressing me regarding some of the content covered. However, these step by step, neatly packaged ways to marraige bliss, love, communication, and compatibility make a lot of sense and seem easily applicable, but I am not easily packaged and my life doesn't make sense on powerpoint slides.
On that note, I hope no one is really taking me seriously re: my comment to break the previous DAP's age record. Going out to dinner on grandpa's social security check is not a turn on for me, let's get that straight.
Maybe 'brainwashing' was too strong a term to use, but let me put it this way, if you love someone, I mean really love them, and you go to these meetings and you see that two of the 7 keys of compatibility are age and culture and the man you love is 15 years younger than you and Chinese, what should you do? We don't look for these situations, they find us. Love finds us, and if you can pair up a couple according to all the keys and secrets given in the 4 meetings thus far, then you have found something I didn't think existed on this earth, and something I wouldn't consider love for that matter. Something about love is desire, and something about love is blind, and something about love is chance- not all of it, but somethings of these are there. It makes it fun, it makes it wild. It keeps us awake at night and looking in Warsaw crowds though for sure he is across the ocean. It is not so simple because we are not so simple and if you think it is, then not only are you brainwashed, but you are missing out.
Sometimes I think that God wants to simplify my life and take my heart and fit it into these neat little packages that Roman Chalupka and other wisdom alloters hand out in meetings and classrooms and sermons. But then I wonder, is it really God, or is it just pressure from my culture which is so strong in so many ways that in the end I don't know what is truth and what is just Adventist culture? For most of my life I really believed drinking, smoking, and jewelry would send you straight to hell. Is it true? But I can eat chocolate, not exercise and have a luxury car and not feel bad. If I steal and murder I will go to hell, but I can gossip and be a poor steward and that is not so bad? I'm sorry. There is just so much more to life than most of us are willing to see. Is it simply because we are scared of what we don't know, or what might be that we are so willing to comfortably be stamped with a cultural proof of purchase and line up for the milestones of life? To claim to be Bible readers and seekers of truth, yet swallow the 27 doctrine pill and never crack the book or ask 'why?' I want to wake up and see the culture that traps us and blinds us from a greater truth. I refuse to follow the leader, to live an ordinary life, or to take the easier road. Some think me obsessed with greatness. I think I am just using the mental, physical, and spiritual capacities God has given me to the fullest.
posted by lady be good @ 11:36 AM
4 Comments:
Dearest Dolly, you did not step on my toes, we haven't danced YET. ;-)) I guess it goes without saying that the meetings outline in a very, veeeeeeeery broad sense some guidelines and nobody even tried to put us, or our family/love lives into neat packages.
We do not have to improvise all the time and break in through a door that has long been open for everyone. We can remember about the guidelines and use our passion and wild imagination to improvise when filling the missing elements of the puzzle for our own, UNIQUE lives.
I think it's worth considering that other people around you, friends who care so much about you, also have very deep feelings, although at first, very superficial glance, they may seem brainwashed and missing out.
I know it too well that emotional pain may remain for a long time. Yes, me too, although, in my case, as I am not gay ;), it is/was not 'He' across the ocean but 'She' across the ocean. I wanted to look back across the ocean for ever. I think it will have to stay in the past tense ‘wanted’, otherwise it will mean only more pain and destruction. Am I open enough on this blog? ;-) Peter
My Dear Sister,
I think it must be the time of year that you are addressing such issues on your blog. Surely you have read mine for today and see that I discuss some of the same issues. But my advice would be to stop looking through these so-called crowds. If God wanted you to "see" this person He would sit him in front of your face. Let go and live like the Dolly I know. Let God and He'll lead you to something great for I am sure that you truly are bound for greatness. Not only that, but don't feel bad about your supposed obsession with greatness. It must be a Porawski thing because I feel the same way, hence my struggle to decide if I want to get my BS! Whatever you become in the end, you were always great to me. Even when we were only 7 and 8!
awww very touching words.. I have to agree with what dearest patti has just said. I love you sweetie! xoxo
You go, girl!!! I like your attitude about living our lives to the fullest, aka "carpe diem" and completely advocated in the Bible. We are to enjoy our lives and everyting God has given us, all the days of our vanity!! :+)))
I have learned one thing from the seminars: treat your partner better than yourself. I used to think it's necessary only to treat your partner equally, but I think the other, better treatment will provide better results. Oh, I've learned one other thing, but I won't put it on the blog (and it's not even the subject you're thinking about... ;) ).
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