PJP 2 Kicks the Bucket

I can't imagine that any place is more tearful than Poland this evening as PJP2 finally said 'Sianara'. I decided to drop in on one of the vigil services at my local Catholic church on the way home this evening. The church was pretty full even at the late hour of 10:30 pm. I only wish he could have held out another day since now everything will shut down, including to opera to which I had tickets for tomorrow night- and it was going to be Carmen! I am so broken hearted.

Thanks everyone for the support over the camp issue, for believing in me and all. I hate walking around feeling like a "bad-ventist" because I was rejected from the group who I considered to be the remnant of the remnant- and I still do think so. Harboring no ill feelings in the slightest- just really disappointed. My sister said it best that this is really just a misunderstanding of my sense of humor. Even so. Leon gave me a few words this morning that have started to turn me around. He reminded me that God has a way of turning curses into blessings when we are faithful to Him. That we don't know the dangers that lie ahead of us sometimes and when God knows we won't say 'no' on our own free will, He closes the doors for us. I only hope and pray that God can use me in some other way this summer. I still plan on coming to the States because I want to spend time with my family and I need to earn the big bucks! So if anyone knows of a place looking to hire a hard worker who needs to earn about 6 grand, holla back!

As for love, still not feeling too much better on that one. Still having the miscarriage, but thanks Peter for the support, Mike for calling people to come and check on me, Leon for being in close proximity, Bryce for writing even when I don't, Nikki for making me feel wanted, Sister for your two cents as well, and the list goes on. I am still purposely remaining out of touch for a bit, (sorry bee, plp, and naf for that) but I need to get all of this down in the form of some poems and I don't want to put my words any where else until it's out, so it could be a while yet. Please do comment on the blog though. It really means a lot to me to know people are reading and responding. Call it my harmless little power trip.

Off to bed, as it is very late. The Pope is already sleeping, and now so must I.